So throught my life my relationship with christ was very "secular", although I believed in the religion only on sundays or on rare ocasions would I remember of christ.
But this has changed, due to various mistakes I've made. Certain experiences and other ideas made me consider following christ in a more religious and spiritual way the thing is my life right now although its certainly not bad, i can't stop looking at the past and seeing doom and sometimes it goes so bad to self pity.
And I would like to in this moments just remind myself of christ because when I do I think more rationally and stop "feeling" the doom and gloom in the future
A friend of mine has recomended me the works of the CEO of jesuits well, maybe the COO considering that jesus runs the whole thing... But I can't read a book because of my conditions which make reading a book thats longer than 50-100 page's nearly impossible unless I go to the library and even then its hard.
So any idea's on how I can focus myself on christ and reassure that he really is sleeping next to the wheel of the boat, or on what my friend is recomending?