Recently, I have learnt something that will forever stick in my head.
Jesus' prayer in the garden is something we should not be take lightly as I have always done. All the pain and torture, insults, whips, strength to carry the cross and face shame before all men was about to begin within a very short time. It was one big moment of his life. He had to get ready for the consequences of what ever he will do from there. He asked the disciples for the third time to help him in prayer but they slept. He went into prayer for the 3rd time concerning the same issue with his father with sweat and heaviness oozing like blood. He was strengthened right there.
This is the Son of Man, the Perfect man, asking for God's help how much more you, who knows nothing.
You should understand why we are sheep and the Lord our Shepherd. For we foolishly move about not knowing where we are going, even to the edge of the cliff, but He will guide us.
"Don't go to war without wise guidance; victory depends on having many counselors."
Proverbs 24:6, NLT
This big decision you are facing is your war at the moment, let God be your big time Counselor.
"My son, if thou wilt receive my words, and hide my commandments with thee; So that thou incline thine ear unto wisdom, and apply thine heart to understanding; Yea, if thou criest after knowledge, and liftest up thy voice for understanding;"
But please, there is a way you should ask God for help, with FAITH.
"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed. For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord. A double minded man is unstable in all his ways."
After prayer, just make a move, after weighing the pros and cons and still confused, go on and choose, He has just directed you.
And never act on your own again even when the decision seems easy to make. No matter how logical your plan in mind could be, pray over it. I will end with this for you.
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. IN ALL YOUR WAYS acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.."